Craziness...

I know it's been a few days since I've recaped by day.  The best word to describe the past few days is simply CRAZY.  Crazy is a broad term.  It's used to describe everything from complete chaos, to mental illness, to being busy, being hot, busy, or tired or simply a little eccentric.  To say my life has been crazy is an understatement.  My sister, who has schizophrenia, was found it Portland, Oregon two nights go after being missing since Monday morning.  A lot of people write her off as crazy, but she's actually just incredibly ill.  She does not respond to medication and she constantly runs away, putting herself in vulnerable and dangerous situations and leaving her family scared to death.  It's really sad and disgusting how little resources there are for people who are mentally ill simply because society would rather write them off as crazy.  Because there are so few resources and so few people recognize mental illness as an actually medical condition, she was released back on to the streets of Portland with $3 in her pocket and no resources.  She does not have her cell phone with her either.  Of course we're all scared to death, pacing around, trying to go on with life as usual and trying not to go crazy. Yes, we exhausted every resource and tried every possible option to get someone there to meet her or to get one of us there in time, but, according to the hospitial, law and public policy, she has a right to be mentally ill and they have no right to or grounds to keep her detained and safe.  So now we wait and hope and pray.  Wait for a phone call, hope she's okay, and pray for her safety.  Crazy.  My husband, Dave, has started a part time job at a mens store downtown to try to bring in a little extra money.  He works three days a week, leaving him less time to study and prep.  I'm happy he has a job.  However, starting a new job and wanting to impress people makes people a little more crazy than usual.  My dad left for a fishing trip (he's an avid fly fisher) on Sunday morning.  He has been out of range for cell service since Sunday around 10 in the morning.  He doesn't know what is going on with my sister.  As far as he knows, she still at the group home playing Nintendo.  He will not be available until Saturday morning.  Who knows what will have happened by then.  Crazy.  If you read this, please pray.